I can't sleep for some reason. There's lots I wanna get done tomorrow and I just can't wait for the sun to come out. They're not really exciting stuff; in fact with the exception of a single task (if it does take place of course), the rest are just things I wanna get over with, and get outta my head. I really hated the long weekend, me and five other guys ... only coz it held me back a lot, and I don' have much time before I leave for EU!

I tend to write a lot these days, mention unimportant details about my ordinary life ... I guess I just sorta write memos to myself, so I get to remember what I was like ... actually that's not even true. I don't really know if there's really a purpose to it other than the mere need to satisfy my urge to think out loud ... there's just so much going on in my mind ...

I've been by myself recently, and honestly, I've been enjoying it. At the same time, I, more often than not, find myself talking to myself! Not like the crazy homeless people on the subway of course, but sorta like the same way I'm rambling right now, only in my mind ... I do admit though, it's not completely normal. Although, I'm not worried, as it's really not the only abnormal thing about me :P and yes, I do take pride in NOT being just another sheep in the herd.

So in less than a month, I'll be taking a pretty big step towards the rest of my life (I don't like to use the term "future" as it seems unreachably far), and I'm naturally excited! But there's lots to be done. Preperation seems unimaginably endless. But I'm sure I'll manage. I'll probably endup forgetting some things, and then I will later manage to forget about how I forgot about them :)

I'm not used to sharing my experiences ... I'm not used to talking about my personal life. Mostly becoz there was this one person really close to me who was in fact always purely interested in my life, and now he's gone ... I guess I'm just trying to fill his void this way, and I just can't ... I wonder if I will ever move on ...